Monday, July 17, 2017

lake powell part one






























We skipped out on responsibility and headed down to Lake Powell for five days.
And it was HOT!!!!
But very much the break and fun we both needed to recharge and keep pushing through this pregnancy.
We visited the Glen Canyon Dam and went on the dam tour.
It was interesting, but by the end of it I was needing a refreshing treat.
And then learned that Page doesn't have an Arctic Circle OR a Jamba Juice??
What kind of world were we in?
But good thing for Sonic and AC.
Watch out for part two where I actually talk about the main reason we went down there: boating.

Monday, June 26, 2017

pregnancy essentials































There are a few things that every woman finds to be able to make it through a long nine months of pregnancy.
Nobody else's suggestions helped.
So these are mine.
For the first 5 months at least.

1. Coke. Whatever chemical is in a cold Coke just really burns away all those nasty tastes and nauseous feelings.Who knows what the heck else it's burning away, but I honestly wouldn't be able to eat half the things I do without a Coke to wash down every couple bites.

2.  Netflix and a quality bed. For some reason laying in bed is just so much more comfortable than any couch or chair that I have tested out. But an important element of a quality bed is a mountain of pillows that you can surround yourself with.

3. A Husband. Or someone else to do absolutely everything for you. I'm pretty sure I would be living in a waste bin if my husband (and mother) wasn't there to help cook and clean. And give me massages. And respond to my every request. And carry things I can't. And heat up my rice bags. And keep me sane.

4. Throw-up Bowl. Preferably next to your bed. And in your car. And in your purse. And in your husband's car. Cause you never know when it's gonna hit, all you know is it aint gonna be pretty! So also keep some sort of breath freshening/teeth cleaning supplies near those barf bowls.

5. An arsenal of food. You never know what the heck your belly is gonna wanna eat. I honestly never thought that your belly could dictate so strongly what you put on your plate, but pregnancy gives it a mind of it's own. Some days it will want an avocado and the next day the thought of an avocado will make you want to throw up. Have a varietous selection so you can feed that already picky baby whatever he wants.

Tuesday, June 20, 2017

camping





























I have just been itching to go camping lately.
And so we planned on going to a nearby campsite with toilets and tables so that if I started to feel too too sick, we would have resources to help me feel better.
BUT everyone and their mom loves to camp in Utah and of course, most places are first come first served.
So instead, we drove deep into the Uintahs, took a few wrong turns,  and pitched our tent near a river and some cow pies.
And for our 9 o clock dinner we ate.....wait for it.....
Salmon and asparagus tin foil dinners!!!
I nearly died, it was so quick and delicious.
I am honestly camping no other way from here on out.
And the sleeping wasn't too bad.
Bruce stood guard alllll night, we could hear the river running, and it just took me about ten minutes to flip my pregnant body over every couple hours....
It was a nature-lovin dream!
Next time we're just gonna try to get there before night fall.

Sunday, June 11, 2017

priorities

Lately I've been thinking about what's important to me.
What are my priorities?
What am I doing to honor those priorities?
And what am I choosing to spend my money on?
It's so easy to see what other people are doing or buying and to shift your focus to the lives of others.
But everyone is different and everyone values different things.
I need to focus on my family and where we are at and what we want.
Since Summer has started I wanted to continue making adventure and quality time important even though I've been so sick.
So I decided that even though I can't go on all the adventures I had been wanting to go on, I can make it work for me.
I looked up the easiest hikes around and have been slowly doing them so that I can still feel like my priorities are being honored.

































The first hike is The Grotto in Payson canyon.
This hike took quite the drive to get here so it's not one I will frequent often.
But it is PERFECT for children.
It's not steep, but has some river crossings.
And the ending has a nice waterfall, but there's not space at the top to sit and hang out.
Which is OK because it's only 1 mile, out and back, so you won't need to lunch at the top.

































Battle Creek Falls in Pleasant Grove was a little longer, at 1.5 miles out and back.
And holy cow it was STEEEEEP for this pregnant lady, but is still a good hike for all ages including kids.
And the waterfall at the end is a little more impressive with lots more space to hang out and eat a snack.

Both hikes are always pretty dang busy with packed parking lots so go into it prepared for that.
But don't let it deter you from these fun hikes.

So, priorities honored, no matter how modified.

Saturday, May 6, 2017

pregnancy
































Before I got pregnant I thought that no matter how hard people said it would be, I was pretty dang tough.
The nausea, the pain, the fatigue.....I could do it because I was doing it for a purpose.
But guys, going through this has almost broken me.
I've decided to go part time at work until I feel better and today is my first official day off that wasn't taken off because I couldn't get out of bed.
And all I can say is that it is Heaven.
I don't feel un-sick, but I do feel like I'm not going to curl up in a ball and die any second.
So that's nice.
This has been probably the hardest thing I've ever done.
For 11 weeks now I have not felt like myself and that has scared me.
I haven't been able to take care of my family, spend quality time with my husband, do the things that I love, or even do much in terms of earning an income.
I have been slowly going crazier and crazier and Derek can attest to that!
I haven't even enjoyed talking about being pregnant because I have felt so much guilt about it.
I don't see this terrible sickness as "Well, at least this means the baby is ok."
Instead, I've sometimes regretted getting pregnant.
I don't see this terrible sickness as "Well, at least something good comes out of it in the end."
Instead, I worry that especially when the baby comes, I will never be me again.
So, today, to have a break and feel a little more whole again is everything.
It's so hard to find joy in our struggles, but it's probably the most important thing that we can do for ourselves.
Even if it's just one day out of many.

Saturday, April 22, 2017

first trimester

































I am officially at 14 weeks and haven't escaped the first trimester morning sickness yet.
At exactly week 5 I started getting sick; just lack of appetite at first and getting sick if I thought about food.
Then quickly it turned into full on nausea which turned into pretty severe vomiting.
I ended up losing 10 pounds and going to the hospital twice for dehydration so far.
I've been eating a lot of cereal, switching which kinds I eat so that my stomach doesn't get tired of it.
Pizza has been a go to for me and as of late, salads and plain bean burritos from Taco Bell; specifically.
But every day my stomach wants something different so it's pretty much the luck of the draw each day.
Medicine doesn't seem to do a d**n thing.
And the more intense medications just make me feel so awful that I can't even get out of bed.
So I haven't really had any relief.
Peppermint gum used to work, but now the flavor is too strong and makes me sick.
And because of my scoliosis (assumingly) I have already started having sciatic nerve pain.
As for the good side of things:
At week 8 we were able to have an ultrasound because of my previous miscarriage.
The heartbeat was really strong and it was awesome to see and hear.
We were able to find out the gender in a blood test and will reveal it soon, after we've told our families.
At me E.R. visit we got an ultrasound done and were amazed at how human this little thing looks now.
There were hands and feet and a spine and "it" was just wiggling all over the place!
Pretty neat to see.
As for if I recommend getting pregnant, ask me once I can drink water again.

Friday, January 13, 2017

month one: part one

We are trying one new thing each month this year.
And for the first month we decided to go back to Moab for our annual trip.
But this time we had to make it a little different so that we would be following the rules of our resolution.
So instead of hiking in Arches we brought Bruce and did a bunch of little things around Moab that were pet friendly.
On day one we saw some cool petroglyphs, dinosaur tracks, and Corona Arch.
All 3 of us had a BLAST.
With a few exceptions we were the only ones on these trails which made it even more fun for Bruce to run around and for us to explore a little more.